Lethargy

can feel nothing more than exhaustion...
my physical fitness just wouldnt let me continue my studies
mental strength to study is weak and always succumb to my body's tiredness

haiz.. i wan to go home
i dun wan to be in singapore la..
haha.. this time go back.. i am goin to indulge myself in PC fair
need to buy a camera and probably a new handphone
hmm.. wat brand to buy? can any1 give a good recommendation?
i heard that canon's camera is not bad.. think gonna get IXUS SD880 that model

tired of thinking bout my exams..
all i could think of is the night where CBE Malaysians are goin to come to my block n have steamboat
muahaha... i think they are the reason that i can stil continue studying here
these people are really supportive n helpful
very blessed to have them around
despite the hectic exams schedule, v r stil having fun around
go youtube+ing, flash games, chat "lin hua", jogging, purposely walk to a faraway place just to get ice-cream
of cos, there r also exceptions, where these people wil b constantly mugging
so sorry, that i am not like that
if 1 day i turn out to b a person hu constantly mugs,
pls call an ambulance n send me back to malaysia, cos i may nid treatment fr tanjung rambutan
might have gone a bit pshyco at tat time
muahahaha

very excited to be going home
many exciting things to do
but on the other hand, i am very worried bout my grandpa's health condition
all i noe is that he is deteriorating everyday
i wan to have the chance to see him talking to me n greet me
i never thought that i would miss my kong kong this much
haiz... sometimes, death is so far, yet so near...
i think my kong kong is the closest to me,
during my a-level period, he was the 1 that sends me to the lrt stn every morning
when i was young, he will come to my house n give me money
and there was once, i asked money fr him to buy crayon
bcos my parents wouldnt allow me to have the pack of 48 crayons
thus, i secretly n quietly got money fr him n got myself i box of crayon
this thing appears so vividly in my mind, tat time i was only 8 years old

there wil b the time when all this things wil come to a pass
where i got no more kong kong, like i have got no more mama now
ut my kong kong suffer more than my mama
bcos he has pancreatic cancer but my mama died a sudden death
where she neednt suffer much pain, except maybe for that 1 minit pain
i miss her... sumtims, come to think bout it
tears just cant stop flowing
how bout my kong kong? pray that he will wait for me
dad says his condition is no good and that my aunt fr USA is coming back to malaysia again just to take care of him..

I miss mama a lot..
miss all her kuih, desserts, delicacies, n all her story telling
where is she now?
in heaven? seeing me typing this blog? but she wouldnt understand also... haizthere are a lot of memories btw me and her..
memories that i wil never be able to forget

Ma Ma, i miss you very much..
I love you..
rest in peace o...
all of us are very good here...