just my feeling

you know? after every exams, students tend to discussed what they have written in their exam sheet
and make comparison on whether their answers are correct or not
Since some time ago, I always try to avoid such conversation with friends after exams
I guess it is because I dun wan to let my emotions ruin my mood to study other subjects
if I did poorly in the exams previously

However, it is inevitable that you will hear comments, for example:
-Oh man, i dunno how i did. I have got 1-2 mistakes in my objective q. (When there are 20 MCQs)
-Arhhh, I dunno how to do q4 and q3. I wrote this(...) and that (...)
-A: eh, wat is your answer for q4.
B: oh, I have written this (abc).
A: huh?! yes meh? you c (flipping thru lecture notes), lecture notes say this.
B: Oh reli?! but u c, last time the test answer is this (def) wor...

No matter how hard I try to shun myself from these,
they are still flying everywhere through thin air
Many times, I just cant help feeling sick and tired of all these
In my heart, i mumble:
"hello?! exam is over.. just get over it and start preparing for the other paper.
and if you were to do that badly, what bout me? you guys are scoring 4.4-5.0.. and me?! 3.81!!"

i know that i feel like this is because i am a poor student
but, to me, this feeling is inevitable, I am only Human.. and I have feelings,
I will feel disgruntled, fed-up, sickening and "oh, here they go again" type of feeling
imagine putting yourself into my shoes,
if sum1 so good in his studies and comes to you saying that he doesnt noe how to do the questions,
what is the logical thinking you will think?
wouldnt it be :"huh?! you also dunno how to do ar? how much more me?"
and guess what... I am not supposed to say how i actually feel!!
So, this type of feeling has been accumulated since I enter NTU

whn i was in secondary school and KTAR,
nobody tend to discuss the answers after exams,
we would be so happy that exams are over and are ready for full-force celebration
the results doesnt really matter already
because we have tried our best.
However, in NTU, it is totally the opposite
Everyone here is so excited of what they have written.
I dont mean that there is something wrong with that
But, if you were to feel bad, sad, depressed,
apprehensive, worried, and keep on whining, complaining
when you realised that you have done some mistakes,
then why want to self-induce these type of non-beneficial negative emotions?

Resemblace?

Prof William, my Biomolecular engineering module lecturer
Since the 1st day of my lecture with him

I frequently thinks that his looks resembles Miu Kiu Wai

Coincindently, Prof William is presumed to be from Hong Kong too

This is one of my favourite actor, Miu Kiu Wai
Don't they look alike?

Ahhh.. my fluidssss..

wei wei,
i got 100/100 for fluid mechanics
really unbelievable.. : )

i hope this good chain of results will continue to disseminate to all my other subjects
Pray that I will score absolutely fantastic results for tomorrow's accounting

Accounting is tough
they always like to give you irrelevant data to trick and confuse you
provide similar data to make you doubt yourself
and a lot of tricky questions
the lecturers really do know how to grasp students' psychology also
they purposely come out with a question that you thought that it is asking "A", but actually it is asking for another thing, eg "B"

Pray that I will not get tricked and always keep a clear mind through out
God is a good Lord
He covers me with protection through out the exam
He prompt me to answer questions along the line
eventhough i totally dont even have an idea what to write
Thank God.. He truly loves me..

Exams cumin.. oh ho..

hakuna matata, means no worries..

final exam is so near
getting a bit apprehensive, stressed
fear that there isnt enough time to finish studying everything

my 3rd final exam in NTU,
and it is the third time i tell myself :" i should have started earlier"
the glad thing is, things seems to be more manageable this semester
n i hope what i feel is the reality

so, all the best to everyone.
will pray for ya

Blessed are those who trusts in the Lord

Jeremiah 17:7-8
But blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord
whose confidence is in Him.
He will be like a tree planted by the water
that send out its roots by the stream;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruits.

hmm , Lord,
i need to be more faithful and trust in you
may my faith increase as i come to study the bible day by day
May you speak to me and open to me your wills for me
i commit all my exams and burdens into your kind loving hands
because it is there, you make miraculous things happen.
In God, I trust. Amen.