Reminiscing my younger days

School days has zoomed by
another 3 years, i would officially be a young working adult
Uni life is exhilarating and busy at the same time
this is the little time i can squeeze out to update my blog

Had spent the whole night doing mathematica
while keeping the the computer running
the FM is tuned on to 95.0 where they play the oldies
a song called These Dream--Heart (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7LLaeRUsWr0)
brought me down to memory lane,
to the years when i was 5-7 years old

I remember
my dad used to tune into radio that play all these songs
of age, but everygreen, ever soothing to the ears
thses songs are like wine,
as they grow older, their value appreciates
these songs was recoreded in my mind sub-consciously
i can even hum the melody
mumble some lyrics in between
eventhough i hv never seen the lyrics before

I remember
how blessed i was to have my grandma come to visit me every 2-3 days
she brought sweets, bubble gum, lollipops
which my dad strongly forbids
She always leaves her hankerchief behind, because it used to got stucked in between the sofa
Occasionally, she will give me some pocket money, around RM2

I remember
grandma asked me, which is my favourite kuih
without hesitation, i told her is the "pink kuih" (teow chew kueh)
she puzzled, thinking "wat pink kuih"
at that time, i cant speak much chinese
she cant understand much english
to further describe, i told her
"neh, inside got rice 1, outside pink colour, triangle in shape"
She laughed...
She said making that kuih is very tedious and tough

I remember
how she taught me to remember her house number
n told me to call her when i face problems
she went "call maamaa hao (house), maamaa hao number.. see--veenn(7), ate(8), waaann(1), ate(8), ggg--row(0), ate(8), seekk(6)"
and i repeated after her
from then, i hv never forgotten the house number
unfortunately, the house is stil there
but mama is no longer there

I remember
there was once, i envied my frens having 38 crayons in a box
i dared not asked my dad to get me 1
n one very fine afternoon, just b4 boarding the skul bus
my grandpa came
haha, i told him i wanted a box of crayons which cost RM8
which is a lot of money to me at that time
cos my weekly pocket money was only RM10.
He smiled and giggled, his eyes sickled
n gave me the amount of money
i put up my 2nd finger in front of mouth(silent sign) and whispered :"shhh, dun tell daddy, ya.."
n v kept promise not to tell daddy.. til today, daddy stil doesnt know
grandpa has kept his promise
He will never break his promise,
because he has joined grandma shortly after grandma stepped into heaven

Kong Kong is always the first to volunteer to chauffer me everywhere
to tuition, school
from school, piano class, lrt station
these lasted till his very last days
even my a-lvls, he was the one hu sent me through-n-fro the lrt station
he is never late
he purposely reached earlier, sometimes half an hour earlier
i always asked him not to be so early
sometimes i even tell a time much later than my exact arrival time
but many times, i stil c him standing at the lrt station waiting for me
this is how fervent and excited he is to meet his grandchildren

I miss kong kong & mama
pray that they are happy wherever they are

Today, it coincidently came from the radio stn afar
brings my memory back to childhood days
where I was so carefree, happy
everyday was just a blissful play
Play back, rewind to unwind my hussle-bussle day

Oldies:
Angle of mine--Eternal (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ts1qQ8jN8o0)
Someday--Eternal (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U-04uPm9i4k&feature=related)
Alone--Heart (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jxfdDrKO8uM&feature=related)
Listen To Your Heart--Roxette (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3sJPUTTfNbg&feature=fvw)

At a blink

Time and tide waits for no man
How i wish i can prove this statement wrong..
Time has always left me dumbstrucked
Time has left me behind without me knowing it is slipping away from me silently
Time has tried very hard to be oblivious to me
Just at a blink, I am already a sophomore
What awaits in the near future? career? family?
It has all come too fast..
I hv always wanted to grow up, be an adult
get financially detached from the family
be independent, staying outside my roof of 20 years
However, when the time comes for me to do these long-awaited-childhood-dreams of mine
I became fearful, apprehensive of my future
All along,
I have been a girl of confidence about my future
At the age of 11, I knew i wanted to go Chong Hwa
before secondary school, I have already decided to study in Singapore
Every decision was clear, define and definite

What about now?
Sometimes I even doubt my eligibility for this course
What has thrown me to this sea of insecurity, vague vision of my future?
Guess, as a child, I hv been over-protected
not given the full freedom to run around
not that i am blaming my parents
I understand that KL is too dangerous for a child to run around carefree
Thus, there is this boiling urge to catalyse my growing up
aiming to achieve freedom
Unfortunately, everything comes with a price to be paid
you want freedom, but you have to earn it..
Freedom is attained when you are fully financial capable and stable
How is that easily achievable?
I feel like a coward now
A person afraid of the society's cruelity
Dunno how the society looks like?
Is it really hard to find a friend?
Back-stabbing is common? Betrayal is everywhere?

Sometimes,
I still feel like running into my mum's chest for a warm hug
very childish, huh?!
But it is so comfortable, like as if you will never be harmed
eventhough i am already taller than my mum
but everytime i dig into her arms
I feel like I am a baby being fully protected and armed by the hands of mother..
Maybe, this is why they say Mother's love is great..
words can be omitted
emotions speaks it all

Love Songs

I have wanted to write about this topic about a month ago
i happened to be following ONE.fm one fine morning
and the subject was about----" Songs you want n do not wish to listen in your wedding march"

hehe
so, the traditional, all-time favourite "wedding march" by Mendelssohn has become obselete
actually, i would like to listen to mad--Neyo or 1234--Plain white T's
they are really romantic
not those conservative romance of candle-lit dinner, grand march down the aisle etc.

For Mad--Neyo
it shows how much the guy wanted the girl to be happy n avoid arguements
when two ppl come tgt, disputes are inevitable
but, can we not go to bed being mad at each other?
can the girl not cry for nothing?
but, baby, can v make up?
if the girl is still mad, the guy can't sleep through the pain seeing his loved heartache
Mad's lyrics just fits all marriages

while, 1234--Plain White T
it makes love so easy, as easy as "I love You"
sometimes, just 3 words says it all
no need for elaboration, no need for flattery words, no need thousands of promises
a sincere "I Love you" holds all that is needed
no matter how bad your day has been,
Love can piece you back all together...
no matter how plain, ordinary, your love one is
he is still a special gem in your eyes...
Love is just so simple
It is when one starts to fall out of love, then complication occurs

Love rejuvenates the soul
makes you feel complete
Love makes you go out of the way to serve someone
and in the end of the day, u stil find it worth while
Love protects everything
you feel secure, cared, cherished
even if the world falls, you stil hv a chest, a wide spread arm to run into

Attached is the two songs, with it's lyrics
Feel the beat, imagine you are loved, sense the atmosphere
tinkle every nerve in you, may the lyrics touch those who are in love
"Mad--Neyo" --> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r4nM2gTAeTg&feature=related
"1234--Plain White T" --> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ShoXm6MVYM

throw him off my mind

guess what?

i found many flaws in him (hmm.. but nobody is perfect la)

n i hv made a firm decision to throw him out of my mind

he is 

-childish

-inconsiderate

-aint gentleman

-overly goal-orientated

-can be on an emotional ride sometimes

so, there is practically nothing for me to fall-in-crush, right? (convince me wif this statement, pls)

maybe it is the spur of the moment good characteristics fr him i saw that i like

so, is the characteristics i like, not the person

should count my blessing for not falling-in-crush

muahaha...

3 cheers n 3 cheers n 3 cheers for being crush-free now

hip hip hooray, hip hip hooray, hip hip hooray

Panoramic view of Singapore city centre

this is Clarke Quay

pls pronounce it as "clerk key".. 

many ppl tend to pronounce it wrongly initially

these ppl includes me.. haha

a place where is filled with romance in the night light

famous tourist destination

has bistro, clubs, pubs, shopping malls that opens only in the evening to late night

hmm.. okay, this is S'pore River, i think... hehe, not sure..

and the building is a police station

a very colourful building

each 2 rows of windows is painted in different colours

very interesting building

This was taken from Fort Canning park

from a hill and a distant

beautiful view

the city, incorporated with green

the shorter buildings are at Riverside

the brown colour building is Somerset Hotel

what i like most bout this picture, is the sky, the layers.. 

ohh.. fascinating..

The 2 pictures above are taken inside Fort Canning park

shady, with breeze...

SMU--Singapore Management University

a city campus, without hostel

modernize building

traditional catholic church

reminds me of Hunchback of Notre Dame

i actually wish to get married in such church.. haha

shhh...

hehe... i actually dunno where is this

just snapped pictures panaromic to my eyes..

Ferris wheel ar... 

KL frens, rmb v said wanna take the "Eye on Malaysia" in Titiwangsa...

Tugu Peringatan Bagi Mangsa Awam Pemerintahan Jepun 1942-1945

Fountain in some park in the city centre

hehe, this looks similar to one of our pictures in Sejarah textbook

neh, where in KL, near masjid jamek there

2 rivers converge into one..

anybody can recall??

Construction going on

clean river water flows

bridge that links ppl from all part of the city

The Fullerton Hotel

Authentic and majestic

standing beside Singapore River

guess what? I saw a Ferrari, Mercedes sports car n Lamborghini(if i am not wrong)

parked in front of the hotels

rich, wealthy tycoons

The above pictures are actually the same area

just took the photos from dif angles n places

Hope 1 day I can be spending happy moments with you all

in this place

This is their pub

not those cheap-skate pub u all sea

here, decent ppl come to have a drink and catch up

Very comfortable chairs

looking towards the river makes you feel like it can drain all your burdens you hv locked in your heart

Clean river water flow n cleanse you worry

The motor boat is to take tourist along the riverside

having an eye-experiece on the city centre view

A closer capture of the police station

see the windows in different colours...

nice + creative

Metal forest

I love the sky...

The 4 white construction-like pillar on the right of the pic are poles which holds a capsule

the capsule can fit 6-8 ppl

the capsule is ataached onto an elastic rubber thick string

thn they pull the string mechanically

finally, release the tension

puff!!! you are thrown high up into the sky

next thing... "aaaarrgggghhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"

is what u will hear