Destress

haha.. came in, not because i have got something in mind to write
it is because i am too bored
this coming week would be a very busy and hectic week
three exams.... maybe when i was in sec school, this is no big deal
but now, uni life, it is very different
almost all final exams syllabud includes the whole textbook
haha... i start to salute myself... muahaha

need to destress.. if not, i wil go amok
await for friday.. where every1 would come together and enjoy steamboat
haha...

here, i wanna wish all hu is sitting for exams good luck...
especially yao yao zhai o..
n also my faraway "lao mu" hu is in india
gambate.. i noe u all will de

ok le... finish destress+ing, complaining..
need to go back to reality...
STUDY la!!! Gloria Goh!!!! U GOT NO TIME TO LOSE!!!!
Always gao gao zhan!!!

Lethargy

can feel nothing more than exhaustion...
my physical fitness just wouldnt let me continue my studies
mental strength to study is weak and always succumb to my body's tiredness

haiz.. i wan to go home
i dun wan to be in singapore la..
haha.. this time go back.. i am goin to indulge myself in PC fair
need to buy a camera and probably a new handphone
hmm.. wat brand to buy? can any1 give a good recommendation?
i heard that canon's camera is not bad.. think gonna get IXUS SD880 that model

tired of thinking bout my exams..
all i could think of is the night where CBE Malaysians are goin to come to my block n have steamboat
muahaha... i think they are the reason that i can stil continue studying here
these people are really supportive n helpful
very blessed to have them around
despite the hectic exams schedule, v r stil having fun around
go youtube+ing, flash games, chat "lin hua", jogging, purposely walk to a faraway place just to get ice-cream
of cos, there r also exceptions, where these people wil b constantly mugging
so sorry, that i am not like that
if 1 day i turn out to b a person hu constantly mugs,
pls call an ambulance n send me back to malaysia, cos i may nid treatment fr tanjung rambutan
might have gone a bit pshyco at tat time
muahahaha

very excited to be going home
many exciting things to do
but on the other hand, i am very worried bout my grandpa's health condition
all i noe is that he is deteriorating everyday
i wan to have the chance to see him talking to me n greet me
i never thought that i would miss my kong kong this much
haiz... sometimes, death is so far, yet so near...
i think my kong kong is the closest to me,
during my a-level period, he was the 1 that sends me to the lrt stn every morning
when i was young, he will come to my house n give me money
and there was once, i asked money fr him to buy crayon
bcos my parents wouldnt allow me to have the pack of 48 crayons
thus, i secretly n quietly got money fr him n got myself i box of crayon
this thing appears so vividly in my mind, tat time i was only 8 years old

there wil b the time when all this things wil come to a pass
where i got no more kong kong, like i have got no more mama now
ut my kong kong suffer more than my mama
bcos he has pancreatic cancer but my mama died a sudden death
where she neednt suffer much pain, except maybe for that 1 minit pain
i miss her... sumtims, come to think bout it
tears just cant stop flowing
how bout my kong kong? pray that he will wait for me
dad says his condition is no good and that my aunt fr USA is coming back to malaysia again just to take care of him..

I miss mama a lot..
miss all her kuih, desserts, delicacies, n all her story telling
where is she now?
in heaven? seeing me typing this blog? but she wouldnt understand also... haizthere are a lot of memories btw me and her..
memories that i wil never be able to forget

Ma Ma, i miss you very much..
I love you..
rest in peace o...
all of us are very good here...

SPECIALLY dedicated to my dear fren, Miin

haiyo.. dun get jealous so easily la
din mention u, cos u got no exam now mar...
lk tat also wan scold me...
sad sad sad.. sob sob sob

n then, reli larr...
if u r reli sick n not well
pls go n get medicine,
cos now a lot of ppl are sick.. take care of yourself
if not, i ask ah shun to boil medicine for u.. then only u noe
haha..
better take care..
i dun wan when i go back, i see a very sick miin...
then i wil feel very bad....
cos sum1 miss me til she got cought by a flu bug
muahaha...

today i am quite happy leh
cos i think my exam maybe can get full marks...
muahaha
1st time i got such confident aft entering uni
haiz.. but final cumin larr...
damn sked de.. havent reli started studying well
pls pray o...
haha

dun angry dy la...
sorry.. dun angry o
take care also...

love ya...
ur fren, xin

Studying

guess what?! i have been studying material science for the 3rd time
though i noe tat i am not the person hu has studied the most time in class
but, tis frequency of studying for a small quiz, is like not what i usually do
aft cumin to sg, everything is study..
studying occupies almost 85% of the time i am awake
haha.. but, so far, i guess it is worth while

i am not the best student, or the above avg student
but i noe, i am slowly, but definitely improving
exam marks are also getting more acceptable to my eyes
haha..
so, tmr is material science exam,
pray tat i can get 14/15 n above
dun b shocked!!! cos ppl here can score full marks de
n it is not 1 or 2 person, i think it is at least 15 person in the whole class..
hehe.. ppl here r sum wat "insane"

that day, there was a fren of mine hu asked
"exams are cumin, r there any god here for us to pray too"
thn another guy came answering, "there are so many god n goddess ard us"
hehe... those ppl he mentioned he mentioned r reli "god"
haha.. there is this girl hu nvr score 90 marks n below in aalllll her exams..
but, i am slowly adapting to life here
accept the fact that there r ppl hu can stil do very well in a stint
start to understand my capabilities n my limits
n it is when u go away from home, u start to build ur real personality
so,now i do understand my ownself better

hey, ppl out there, take care ya
many ppl are sick now
n pls.. those hu lk to blame me for their sickness.. pls STOP doin tat
i am not the cause of ur sickness
is u guys missing me too much, tat u weaken ur immune system
n cause the invade of germ, bacteria n virus
**if ur phelgm is green in colour, n prolongs for 3 days n more, pls go consult a doc, cause that one ois bacteria infection, u nid antibiotic... n pls finish the whole course..
hmm... many frens of mine in sg is also sick..

these days... dunno wat happen to my appetite
i am like raring a huge worm in my stomach
i keep craving for food.. no matter wat time, where n wat situation
OMGosh, is this the start of getting fat n gaining unnecessary accumulated internal energy??
i dun wan.. i love my body shape now, dun wanna get fat!!!
haha.. now, i feel lk cooking maggi mee
but, trust me, i am not at all hungry..
just wanna munch n keep my mouth muscle working...

having insomnia for almost a week dy..
cant sleep well, once i start to doze off,
i fall into a nightmare
arghh.. i am reli tired of a sleeping style like this
n i cant afford not to sleep
bcos exams are soooo near..
i wan to have enuf brain power n energy to study

just got to noe tat my "yeye" had his proffesional paper postpone
for a very extreme lame reason -- no electricity
haha...
stil wish him well in his exam la... study hard lo
u need to take care of my fren de leh...
n she is fr rich family, so u must also work well to give her a gud life
muahaha.. i bet she wil comment bout wat i say
wakaka

n u, han yao....
stpm is reli very important.. it destine ur future
pls study hard lo...
i dunno wat i can say to u, cant give u physical or any other form of supprt
bcos i am sooo far away
so, only moral support is provided.. haha
study hard a.. i wan the rm1000 ar!!!
by hook or by crook, i wan tat 1000
haha

erm.. finish talking all the crap
now, wanna resume studying my material science
tmr exam ar... wan score high high to salvage my past exam mark
pray pray...

best wishes to every1..
love, cute hippo..

快乐

有时候，我会问我自己，我真的快乐吗？
我人生中，我或许有了一些小成就，是我身边朋友比较没有的
但，哪有怎样。。
我偶尔会觉得我做的一切我动于衷，因为给不到我真正的快乐。。
在上台领奖的那一刻，是开心，荣耀，骄傲，还是只是为了满足自己的好胜心？
代表学校参与的一切比赛，真的是因为我很有才华吗？
还是只是滥竽充数？

来新加坡读书，是我从小六的梦想。。
以前，这梦想一直给一个对我很重要的人看贬。
现在，我进到了，可是我却觉得（有时啦）这间大学没有容下我的余地
身边的朋友太厉害了。。
在中学，做惯了成绩较些优秀的学生，真的需要时间去适应这里的
“大部分人都比你厉害”的生活
但是呢，我是一个对自己要求很高的人
甚至，或许身边的人都觉得我的梦想很难实现吧
对于我这一方面的性格，我从来没有改过
我并不觉得它是一个缺点，虽然，偶尔，这样的我会活到很辛苦
就因为我是这么样的人，我依然要试尽我的全力去考得我的最好
我不要输给太多人。。
这个好胜，又kiasu 的我，是我进到此校的原因。。

另一方面，我又追求完美
除了要成绩好，课外活动好，我希望我自己也是真正的快乐
但，这也应该是最难求得的东西吧
可能，我真的有学会去施舍，才能领悟到快乐
不要把自己逼到尽头。。

我要真正的快乐
我不要我的笑容只是我的保护色
我要笑得灿烂