today

read a message fr miin fr yao's fon
not surprisingly, miin is complaining, cos i din look for her
haiz.. thn msn h er, she also dun wan to give me a damn
maybe she is reli pissed-off
but, i wasnt feeling well these days.. all sickness, gastritis
hopefully tmr i wil b able to get a scan in HUKM
n pray that my insurance in S'pore will cover all my medical expenses if i were to search medical attention in S'pore

ystd was bz asking my uni frens bout the insurance,
one of them includes him
erm.. he called me back, n asked me hu was sick
i actually hesitated to answer him, but finally, i told him it was me
i dislike myself doing that, cos it seems as though i am seeking for sympathy
in the end, he ended the conversation with "take care of urself.. anything, give me a call, ok?!"
i felt secure, being taken care of.. u noe?! the way a girl will feel?! any1 can catch my feeling at that moment?!
erm.. but i hate it whn i had that feeling,
it is like i am so desperate for a guy.. in actual fact, i am NOT!!! honestly!!!
i just like to dwell in his care, that's all!!!
oh God.. help me not to think over board..

been back in KL for 2 days alr, had done nothing
hvn study... there r just too many things to cope
feel so suffocated
there r exams, tutorials, assignment, blah blah blah
my speed of studying has significantly drop to a very unacceptable level
i used 3 hours, just to study a chapter of organic chem, alkyl halide
n tat doesnt mean i can remember all that i hv studied
haiz... now i understand y ppl can finish their work but cannot
i am just far too slow..
but, i must have faith in myself...
believe that tortoise can also win a marathon race

today went out to sunway pyramid with them
thn sum1 said my taste for garments lk aunty wo...
devastated... although not the 1st time receiving such comments
y? y? y? am i so aunty?
y do i hv to look more mature than my age?
i cant deny the fact that i do reli care whn ppl say that i look more mature than my age
though it has been years i hv been receiving such comments
but, i stil dun seem to get immuned to it
i need to hire a personal fashion consultant!!! arghhh!!!
sien ar...