missing everything...

oh gosh...
i miss practically every single thing in malaysia...
i miss the pasar malam
the pirated DVDs, CDs...
i miss my frens calling me out for yam cha session,
where most of the time is very sudden,
they will cum within 1 hour...
i miss having movies too
my m'sia frens in sg say that watching movie in sg very expensive,
is about s$10++ in sg... (if i am not wrong)
n their cinema is much smaller, screen also smaller, seat also not as comfortable...
haiz....
many things happened in my family o..
zi hau like shu hui
he finally confessed alr
i always trust n blif he will confess de
last time also he confessed to me, nothing de ma
just let the girl know...
actually this type of like/love is very great
u just wan the girl to b happy, do her things....
but not wan her to be ur gf n give u the same amount of love back...
zi hau reli very gud la...
haha...
even better when comes to frenship...

today.. that ah shun called me lou poh zhai
erm... i was a bit shocked
cos i alr told him i dun wan to be called in that way thru sms la
few days ago he asked me "可以叫你老婆仔吗？一定是说不要的啦"
then i reply "明知故问！！"
means i dun wan to be called in that way dy la
then suddenly he sms me today, typing lou poh zhai...
haiz... i actually tot of nt replying his mesg de
but realize lk tat not a very gud act..
but aft tat.. start to accept he calling me lou poh zhai...

this morning.. chat with my kong kong, dua gou n sui gou thru skype
very happy leh
though a lot of noise pollution, n very crooked line
so v switch to msn,
but my msn cant hear a word fr them
but i type in msn...
at least better than skype's noise pollution
n msn pic also better than skype
i hate skype..
it doesnt seem to work well in my computer
haha... i am glad my kong kong is stil in gud condition..
i hope he is reli well...
i miss him though
today they went my house to msn with me
n then my mum cook porridge
haiz... i realize i miss home cooked food a lot
tired of eating out everyday...
like very unhealthy leh...
sure those hawkers n chef put a lot of seasoning n ajinomoto de
but bo bian la... staying outside is like tat de la
just have to accept it...

studying in NTU reli very very super busy
actually is not NTU la, is my course
my course is one the busiest n hardest course in NTU
but also no choice la
this is d only engineering i am interested in
n chemical engineering is the most sought aft engineer
n the highest paid engineer
haha... though this is not the 1st criteria of me choosing this course la
is aft choosing than only realise is the highest paid...
haha... so is a bonus lo
but everything comes with a price
since it is the highest paid..
means it is also much harder to study...
a lot of homework
sometimes i feel like giving up
sometimes wanna break down...
wanna find my boyfren to cry on...
but i must believe in myself that i can do it...
i wan get 1st class honours also can
it is the mind that controld everything
u believe u can, then u can...
pls trust in me that i can
god, i surrender everything to u,
with U, nothing is impossible... Amen

bout my bf,
erm... i know he reli loves me
but i choose not to trust him 1st...
cos i dun wan to get myself hurt again
honestly, my past experience in love,
hurt me a lot... even now when i think bout the truth,
i will still cry...
i dun hate him... v r still good frens..
i wish him well with his current gf...
just that i always wonder y does he have to treat me in that way?
b4 him, i always wanted my 1st bf to be my husband..
but now... cannot already... dreams shattered
though i am very happy with my current bf...
but i choose not to fully trust him 1st..
maybe aft 1 or 2 yrs tgt, then only i wil start to trust...
i also hope he will succed in his insurance exam
hope he earns more...

i finally got society
got a post
quite a busy post
secretary n sub commitee
but also bo bian, bcos nid to stay in hostel
u nid to get a certain marks to continue staying in hostel
singapore life is reli very pressurized for me
maybe i cant handle pressure well...
just hope sum1 will support me.. frens, family, bf, teachers,

i really miss my frens ar...
haiz... hope 20/9 faster cum... then i can go home dy
go back to kl
there i have my family, my bed, my room, my kong kong
i got my frens... can go yam cha.. can catch up with them
get to know wat happened recently..
arghh... i must have been left out in many things
really nid to catch up...
wanna go sing karaoke also

go back also i can see my bf alr
i miss him a lot too..
wanna hug him pulak...
hug tight tight... but i scared when i hug i will cry lo...
i dun wan cry...
i dun wan to bcum a cry baby...
sumtims i hope i am of smaller size,
can put my head on his chest...

tis thursday got material science exam...
really got to study the semiconductor well...
walau... not easy leh
lecture notes like very easy like that...
but the tutorial very tough
aft tis week is maths n bio exam
bio got damn shit a lot of things to memorize
maths also.. different ODE use different equations
got bout almost 20 almost similar equation to memorize ar
sienz.....

ok la... wanna sleep alr
tmr 9:30 got class
alr 2:25am...
bf just ask me whether i sleep alr..
i told him i havent...
haha... he sure scolde me de
haiz... sumtims, he reli like my dad