oh... it has been a week

Time flies... everyday is soo busy
no matter whether it is a weekday or weekend...
everyday seems so similar
is stil busy..
sometimes i wonder, how long can i sustain a life like this..
will i ever get adapted n catch up perfectly with all the syllabus..
here, in NTU, everything travels at the speed of light,
can u imagine?? finishing the whole principle of econ text book in just 1 sem?
1 sem is merely only 3 months (august, sept, oct)
nov is alr exam period...
come to think about it... it's quite scary..

tmr is tuesday again...
i dun reli like tuesday n friday..
bcos there r a lot of tutorial lessons
aft tutorial lessons.. i always feel so hopeless, helpless
thought i have tried doing the questions,
they always seem to turn out wrong
there is a positive way of thinking this,
tat is, if i get it wrong now, at least i learn something,
rather than commiting the errors in the exams

another reason i dislike tuesday is bcos there is this physical chem class
the class starts at 8:30am,
have to wake up by 7:30
then attend the lecture which has like totally no meaning
the lec just chatter n lecture
without eye contact, acknowledgement to the students...
he doesnt even care whether u have any prob in und..
his attitude is just, my job is to lec
lec= talk+prepare slides.
haiz... maybe u can say that uni life is like tat..
just have to self-learn
but... don't u wonder...
if everything is self-learning, y do i nid to attend a uni?
y everybody wans to get into a gud uni, if financial constrain is not an issue?
everytime when i attend his class,
i would surely miss my dear hoo hoo
cos physical chem is actually physics, gas law, enthalpy, thermodynamics....
he is so damn gud in lecturing, making the students understand the physics concept n fundamentals
i am goin back to kl n tell him how much i miss him
haha
mr. siva tooo... i miss him...
i practically miss all my lec in KTAR, except maths la
bcos i din reli nid to pay attn during maths class...
cos i noe how to do alr at tat time
all thx to chong hwa too...

last wed, no class,
stayed in the room...
to my deepest horror, i saw a baby cockcroach...
gosh... my 1st reaction in my mind was to call for "mummy, got cockcroach"
but, i suddenly found that there was no mummy for me in singapore to call to
everything gotta do by urself...
usually in d house, whenever there is an existance of cockroach
me n my sis wil automatically call for mummy "mii....... got cockroach, faster cum beat it"
no choice... now i have to do it by myself...
i stand on my chair, in a dilemma...
whether to kill it or not
if to kill, how? i am afraid of cockroaches... eeewwww
finally, i made up my mind,
i took my slippers n gave it a light hit,
off it went to heaven...
experiencing growth... haiz... bo bian

the next day, was a thursday
erm.. it was also d day i sat 4 my 1st exam in NTU
wah... exam question very tricky,
i checked my ans with the suggested ans uploaded by lec into our e-mail
haha... i think i can only get at most 13/20
mayb.. i should b grateful
but, it is definitely not a score tat i would call it "gud" or "satusfying"
i must study harder to get 16/20 n above...
this is me... i always have high aims
sometimes ppl may think tat it is unachievable...
but though i may usually fail at the starting point..
fortunately, i have always landed in success...
i hope life in NTU would b the same as previous
i need to start believing in myself tat i can..
self-confidence is wat i nid...
i can do it!!! just do it... put in the effort
squeeze n extract the best out of me...

then tat nite...
i felt hungry...
ended up cooking maggi mee for myself
1st time cooking instant noodles here
cooked the korean udon...
funny... it is an expensive brand
my parents surely wont buy it in kl de
but, they bought it 4 me when u came down to sg
maybe they think tat is the least they can do when i am not in d house dy
haha...

very fast, it was friday alr
that ah shun, sms me at d odd hours of tat day
usually he wil sms me during his break
but tat day he sms me the whole day
so, i asked him y
found out, he was not working
stil wanna bluff me initially saying he is in toilet,
so cease the opportunity to sms me...
ask him y take leave...
reason was bcos stomachache...
erm... i tot i wont have any feel
but... erm... i was bit worried bout him...
dunno wat happened to him, food-poisoning?
whether stil pain a not...
then later in d nite, he told me he bluff me de
actually he just wan take leave bcos he was lazy
Shit! Shit! Shit!
he say stomachache
just for the sake of wanting me 2 care 4 him wo...
haiz... tat guy reli lack of love meh...
i tot this type of thing only girls will do
nvr in my mind my guy wil do tat

tat friday nite,
our NTU had a party in conjuction to the mooncake festival
everything was fun...
but, i stil miss my family..
wanna go home n celebrate n have dinner with them
i miss mooncake
i dun reli like mooncakes
just miss the atmosphere of eating mooncakes
last yr mooncake festival, my mama stil here
haiz... i miss her... dunno where is she now
is she in heaven?
does she stil rmb me?
i miss all the food she cooks... she is a great chef...
every friday each of our families will have a dish fr her
haiz... mothers love nvr cease for their children...
last yr my family, had mooncake fest in my hse
v make a words 'glaze, miss you"
had fun... then v ended up scrapping the wax out
i stil got scolded 4 dirtying the driveway
till now, there is stil footprints of the wax...

very fast, it was sunday alr,
i decided to go to church...
i miss my jesus christ too...
went to city harvest church..
i think i have been drifted so far fr Him ever since i came to sg
i felt Him holding me...
i told Him i am very pressurized...
then v sang worship songs
a verse goes "i am leaving all my troubles behind”
4got how it went..
mainly is saying, put all ur burdens down to God,
surrender urself to the holy spirit,
it's not by the individual, but the holy spirit,
u r standing tall...
i wan to put all my belongings to God
i live to serve him,
i wont give up on things...
bcos He guided me n landed me to this path...

came back n took bath...
suddenly, i realized how thin i was
am i always tat thin?
or have i slimmed down?
oh gosh...i think i look lk a bamboo stick...
i asked my parents whether they noticed tat i have slimmed down
they say "no apparent notices"
my dad say " cum back n let him hug, then he wil know whether i have slimmed down"
tat day, i told ah shun tat i suddenly realised i am damn thin
then he said "回来，给我抱一抱，就懂了”
i dunno y... he n my father r sumtims very alike
haiz... just hope he doesnt possess my dad's temper

last weekend was spent on bio
many things to memorize
today was the exam
i think i made at least 7 mistakes,
out of 50 question... haiz...

walking back to hostel,
i wanted to buy tea,
opened my purse, i found out tat i am running low of money
i reached for the ATM machine,
n withdrew some money
haiz... big girl dy
1st time withdrawing money
rmb last time when i was young,
mummy always ask me to study hard, earn a lot of money
n always ask me :"if no money, how?"
then i say :"go bank press, ti tit tit, then got money alr"
haiz... being a child... so innocent...

ok la... tat is it 4 2day
time to wrap up,
nid do material science n tat physical chem tut...
i like mat science...
but dun like physical chem bcos of tat lec
nid study 4 maths too
maths a lot of things to study... haiyoyo...
u wont blif me saying,
tis maths nid to memorize de...
n also nid mind to think la

aft exam... i can go back to malaysia le
kl kl... i wanna go pasar malam, go karaoke....