I've found myself back

I've managed to find my soul back for him
i suddenly came to realise the reason i like him
actually, i really wanna b with him..
he treats me well.. so well, that sumtims i dunno hu am i to deserve all these things
erm.. maybe it is a blessing from God

but as i mention b4, there is nothing like a bed of roses..
even if it is a pool of roses, roses hv pricky thorns...
for us to be happily together, there r way many hurdles to climb n jump over
however, he told me b4, if u blif u can, n hv trust in our relationship..
there reli isn't much problem

time reli flies... quiz period is almost cumin to an end
indicating that final exam is on the way, 12 nov...
1st exam subject is economics...
arghhh... ppl lk me, hu hv negative commerce sense, how to score well leh???
wanna blif tat i can score well, but i think i am only self hypnotizing n self-cheating
got to study that at least an inch thick text book...
think of it, also feel lk fainting alr

i wan go back KL la.. where all my frens are
that day, one of my fren send a song, called 流浪记
n he said that this song describe his feeling now..
so, i opened n hear..
n gosh.. he made me emotional as well..
that isnt a very nice song, but it is definitely a beautiful song
beautiful in the manner of lyrics

at 1st when i came to sg, or when i was confirmed goin down to sg
i tot i was strong, excited, enthusistic, anticipate this "auspicious" event...
the last nite i spent in KL, i din cry
but my frens did.. i dun feel the loneliness yet
within 1 week aft arriving to sg, i feel the pain..
i noe wat is loneliness, emptiness, stress, pressure...
suddenly, reality strikes, never noe that 1 person alone in a foreign area can b tat lonely
eventhough u hv new frens...
but, stil misses those in KL, the times v had spend tgt
those occasion v hv gone thru n things....

but, things are getting better now
i am adapting to life here alr...

to my bf, i reli like u...
would reli wan to be wif u...
but sumtims is just tat i nid sum1 hu is physically there to care for me.
but tat sumbody is just temporary..
n i reli hope u r permanent...
pls understand me.
i am so sorry tat i had tat small feelings for sum1... but now no more dy la
anticipate the day u cum down..

i am tired dy.. wanna sleep dy lo
tmr got bio exam... arghh..
bless me..
all the transcription factors...
TF2D,TF2A, TF2B, TF2F, TF2H, TF2E, TBP, U1, U2 ,U3, U4, U5 ,U6...
summore, the sequence in transcription is not like TF2A to TF2D, is all random,
so is t he U1-U6...
arghh... y r v human sooooooo complex....

n summore, there is this person call Heaviside...
He was a skul drop out at the age of 16, but aft tat invented a lot of mathematics, calculus things
haiz... being expelled dy, then dun go think so much la...
haiz... now i nid to study all the heaviside function n also dirac delta function,
faint faint faint!!!