mood

It’s no later than 1:15am of 5th of march

Haven’t really done anything much today

My computer is down, internet is not working, that’s the reason you guys have not been seeing me on msn for quite some time

Anyway, just wan to tell you people that one Indonesian Chinese of EEE in my school committed suicide on Monday, 10:15am he jumped down from our building, and ended his life on the spot. Before he grabbed his own life away, he ramp into a professor’s room and gave him a few stabs. The professor was discharged from the hospital today. Unfortunately, the Indonesian remains was cremated into ashes today. Even though he has nothing related to me, I felt deeply saddened and don’t understand what was so tough for him… he is alr a final year student, only 2 more months to go, and he is out from this dungeon. What a waste of effort aft 4 years of stint study and ends up with an entangled mind that has lead him to the roof top and gave him the huge courage to jump down. Anyway, I just want to tell u all that I actually felt sad for him and his family.

This is a hectic week for me and my course mates, having 2 major exams, 1 assignment to pass up, programming to hand in… phew.. it is Thursday twilight already, very swiftly, we would have arrived on this week’s weekend.. time just waits for no man.. how I wish I can have 72 hours a day… 48 hours, I dun think it is enough too. Yeah yeah yeah, I noe I am a greedy.

Hmm… another thing is, I found out that he is treating me quite well, and we did things within only 2 of us, eg studied together. I try not to be skeptical and doubt his feelings for me, because if I do, I am putting a trap for myself to fall for him. i want myself to stay out before I get myself badly hurt again. I will never believe what other people say until he himself confesses to me, and I wouldn’t believe my instinct and intuition.

Last week when I just reached my room aft a long journey from Malaysia, guess what!? I lost my intimate garments, my bras… arghh.. I lost two or three of them. And they are brand new, just bought during Chinese new year. They also one of the very very few good bras I have. Now, they are gone…. If I know who the culprit is, he or she will be in hot soup… I haven’t think of a way to punish them… haha… my roommate, toilet mates’ bra were all stolen b4. I strongly believe that the culprit is a guy who has psychological problem, because we girls come from different bra size and cup size, y all of our bra is stolen, if the culprit is a girl, she would nid a bra that fits her own boobs, right?

Oh.. I am freaking tired..

Just want to tell u all that I miss every1 in KL, and sumtims the one in India too… but, dun worry, I have many good frens here too.

I learnt a lesson recently. A week b4 my recess week, I took my maths exam, and I was absolutely depressed because I thought I did very badly. This affects my mood to study for the next day’s exam—physics, which I am suppose to do very well in it. That day, I came back to hostel, called my mum and cried like that’s the end of the world. Just two days ago, I got my results, it was 80/100. Oh my gosh, what a waste of tears. I could hv done very much better for physics if I knew I could get this mark. So, from now onwards, I am not goin to let any exam affect my mood to study for the exam. Besides, I am tired of comparing. I got very happy when I knew I scored 80 marks, so I want to remain happy. I know very well that if I were to ask other Malaysian frens how they scored, many of them will be very much better than me, but I am truly satisfied with my results. I dun wan other external factors to affect my happiness and simplicity of my mind.

Oh ya, yao yao, wan to tell you that Faber Drive song is very nice, eg second chance, sleepless nights, I’m with you etc.

Life is beautiful.. good night.