dancing, my passion, my life

aft so many years, today was the 1st time i really danced again
i realised my happiness lies in music n dancing
tat is my passion, tat is wat tat keeps me goin on
whn i was dancing, i felt relaxed though i never reli danced ballroom b4
i felt no pressure, i dance n dance
hope in 2 yrs time, i can b a professional ballroom dancer
wish me luck, ok...

dancing has been so fun
regretted giving up ballet 7 years ago
i would hv ended up teaching n dancing ballet now
it was just tat 1 more cert i nid, n i could bcum a teacher alr
but, in another hand, if i nvr give up my ballet
my academic wouldnt b tat good (i guess)
i wouldnt hv ended up in in NTU
i wouldnt b a good student in skul
life is just lk tat, u just hv to give up things to accomodate another
it's the choice u make tat pave ur life

Muscle ache

has been exercising vigourously
wednesday went for jogging, eventhough only 2km la, but was already very tired
then friday went to play badminton with frens
saturday represented skul for badminton tournament in inter-school-games (ISG)
Actually just a replacement la
in my game, women's double my grp lost to NBS (Nanyang Business School)
bobian la... their representatives r IVP (Inter-Varsity-Player)
of cos, very very geng la, n for me, many yrs din take out my badminton racket alr
but the main point is, overall, our skul got silver medal for badminton tournament
which means, i am goin to get a medal also
hahaha, lose alr stil got medal to take...
hahaha

this morning went to play tennis wif those boys
this is my very 1st time playing tennis, cant even catch the ball
i think i caught the ball 3 times, it went succefully over the net for 1 time
n the other 2 times, it just went all over the place
n there was even a more funnier act, i hit the ball with the racket n the racket flew with the ball
haiyo, wat a clumsy person i am...

i feel very good aft started exercising
i think i am more healthy, can sustain the night longer
n sleep better in the night

ystd, he told me many things o
erm... nvr knew y.. but he just tsaid tat he felt lk telling me everything in his heart
he say he very bik chik wo
cos he is a person hu will b angry but wont show out n bik chik in the heart
so, sumtims nid to pour out
he told me many many things
cant write here, cos he said is secret wo
hahaha...
he told me tat i am a person hu he can talk to,
everywhere he goes, he must find a person lk tat to throw all the rubbish to
hahaha... suddenly felt like i am a rubbish bin o
aft i return to my room, another person msn me n told him his things
haha.. rupa rupanya, saya memang satu botol untuk meluahkan perasaan yang hebat

baiklah... nak belajar...
kalau tidak, akan mendapat keputusan yang tidak puas...
tetapi, sangat letih o
nak tidur atau belajar leh?
sangat sukar pilih o...

now reli feel sleepy

overweight

nobody on earth would blif i am overweight, i guess?!
the very fact truth is, i am truly overweight
went for a body wellness free checkup today,
n my weight was 51.9kg, while i shud only be 51.1kg
ideal fat percentage shud b 19% but i am 24.4%
have 37kg of muscle in me,
physical rating is also not the optimum 1,
i got only 4, out of the scale of 1-9,
which means, i got an avg body fat but less than avg muscle mass level
so, which means, i nid to go on a healthy diet n start to exercise

luckily i hv signed in for ballroom class
thn at least i will get to move about at least once a week
reli nid to keep fit alr.. haha

promise myself not to eat fattening food n fried stuff starting fr tmr
eat healthily, neat high nutrition food
good luck!!!
gloria is goin on a diet!!!
must extract time to go for swimming also...

Me

tis is my little self tat was hidden inside my heart for a long time
i am a person wif low self esteem, lack of confidence inside my heart
i always think tat i am not pretty, unapproachable, a person wif tons of bad characteristics
n another thing i dislike bout myself is i easily get shocked n wif big reaction
i reli hate tis part of me, i dunno y i am lk tat
tis piece of me, i cant reli control,
bcos it is an instantaneous reaction... how am i gonna control?


i am a girl without being girlish
i am not good in fashion, i look dull at times,
i dun even bother to make up, dress up
i just dun hv a girl's characteristics
i dun reli lk shopping, unless necessary

i dun spend money out of frustration or bad mood
i seldom wear skirt
i dunno how to talk sweet words
even when it comes to thinking, i tend to b more rational (though tis is a good thing), lk a boy
i look fierce and serious ( i receive tis comment for d millionth time)


if only i dun look dull
if only i can be more feminine in nature
if only i can b more pretty
if only i am more clever
if only i noe wat is call fashion
if only i hv an attractive smile
if only i am more approachable
IF ONLY...

情绪化

今天不知道怎么了
想念很多人，想念父母，想念那边的朋友，
还有想念他
从来没有想过我是个会想家的人
那天，在skype跟妈妈讲我很想念他们
我是个不会表达我心里真正在想什么的人
也很少对亲人或熟人说这些所谓“甜言蜜语”
当我真的讲出口了
那就代表我是非常的想家
所以，“我爱你”这三个字我也不会讲
谈了两次恋爱，我只讲过那么 的一次。。。
可是，那时候讲了，我很伤心，因为对象就只是点了个头
这几天，我都很想家

这个时候也没有好心情去研究功课和读文章了
可能是因为今天下载了许多王菲 的歌，属于比较感性化的
所以被感染到了，把我整个人变得很忧

今天他是跟我有一起上课的
但，在课堂上，我都没有看到他的影子
我无法控制我的头不东张西望，不向门口发呆
结果还是没看到他
希望他没有坐在我后面，然后发现我一直在望门口
他应该不会注意我啦（所以他也应该不会懂我望着门口，还有东张西望吧）
他现在在做什么呢？ 应该又是在玩游戏，不然就是看笑片
他不用读书，也可以考很好的成绩的啦
我这份心意，收在心里就好了，不要让任何人懂，希望他永远都不知道
不想大家变得很尴尬。。
我发现自己现在就好像小说里形容那样
他在场时就假装一副不在乎他的样子
他在眼前消失时就开始心急
咳。。 我到底怎么了？

明天很多课，要早些休息
我的部落格，晚安罗。。