exhausted

u~la~la~.. this week is very hectic for me,
today had something lk a quiz in effective communication class
then thurday got maths exam, friday physics exam...
phew... though i had gone through 7 yrs of stint exam training, since chong hwa days
but, exams stil do terrify me a lot... especially when it comes to subject i dun reli noe
for example, maths... d only period of time i was so confident in my maths was in a-lvl
other than tat, maths usually repels me away... huhu

goin for prayer meeting every morning this week, 6:30 to 7:30am
though tiring, but, i trust the Lord that He will grant me strength n determination to continue
too bad, ystd slept at 2am ++, wasnt able to wake up at 6:00am today to go to church...
hopefully tmr will b a better day.... means i would go for prayer meeting

inthe midst of doing maths, drains all my mental power....
gotta be more hardworking...

tis weekend would be Valentine's day
haha... my skul selling roses n teddy bears...
very expensive o... $s5 per stalk... means 5 dollars for a flower...
sob sob.. nobody will be giving me... hehe...

wishing every1 happy valentines
those hu r single, it's nt a bad day aftall, u can go out wif frens n chill out
those hu r attached, i believe u guys will noe better than i do on wat to do on tat day
i hv never reli spent valentine
cos i nvr spent valentine wif my ex-bfs b4... hehe...
anyway.. nothing to be sad bout, just wait for the right 1 to come... haha
for now, my mind couldnt accomodate other things, except for academics n dancing...

today pui li came to my skul to pay me a visit
whn i saw her, i realised how much i missed her...
she took the wrong bus stop down, n pity her, had to walk along the bus route to get near my skul..
but aft tat , i stil had to look out for her...
haiz... she is reli a big dino... but growing more beautifully by the day.. haha

i just got to noe that her bf reads my blog...
haha... real nosy guy he is...

oh yeah.. time to end all my crapping
gotta resume studying : (
blessed be the day!!!

思念

这深夜，思念着我永远再也不能与他们见面的人
从小到大，他们都很疼我，我也很潇洒地对他们说我第一个薪水一定是要请他们吃好的
真的没想到。。
想到这便，我哽咽了
连请他们吃一次的机会都没有
他们离开了，不知道他们现在怎样了

麻麻，公公，我很想念你们
你们对我的好，我会永远铭记在心

Emptiness

Feeling bored and lonely in my own very small room
roommate not in,
i am not going out for dinner, i quarantined myself in d room to study
penalised myself for slacking since week2 of skul
my aunt asked me out, but i kindly rejected
all bcos i wanna study

i hate to feel tat i am a study freak
but i noe very well i am alr 1
however, i dun hv a choice, u see...
every1 here is doing very well, i am an exception
i just cant afford to score another GPA of 4.5 n below
sometimes, i just wonder
how can those ppl do well in their studies, n also hv sports, hv loads of meetings, n stil keep up wif the latest entertainment news, plus, they watch movis n TV Series
arghhh... i hv none of the latter
i dislike a person lk me now
i wanna be an all-rounder
just too bad, i am not 1 here

feeling absolutely lonely now
sob sob

Guessing game?

The guessing game started between me n u since last year
till now, i dun have any answer, all i hv is infinite clues, but with no confirmation
think i am getting tired bout tis game
n will try my very best to quit this game
the good u hv treated me, i would just take it as u do it as a fren
times where u hv gone out of the way just to serve my uninhibited, demanding character
i tell myself it's a norm for u to do tat, as many say u r a "gentleman"
i guess many of the things u did
u honestly didnt realise it will induce a girl to suspect ur feelings for her
maybe, as my horroscope suggest tat scorpios are more sensitive,
i am just being overly sensitive on the way u hv treated me
i am sorry for tat n sorry for myself too
if i havent been so sensitive, i wouldnt hv fallen for u

there r things i see in u tat r flaws in my eyes
but somehow, i see it as d cute part of u
d part tat makes u unique fr other ppl
d part tat made me pay attention to u
n also d part tat made d whole trap of me falling into ur hands
ur stares at me made me once felt insecure n awkward, n i used to avoid
ur stares at me now, i stil avoid cos i am afraid tat i get hypnotized

things u hv told me fr d bottom of ur heart
i reli treasure it as u treat me as a close n reliable fren
n i guess, u wil nvr go more than tat wif me
i do enjoy the good things u hv done for me,
the company, care n everything
but, fr now on, i wil try my best to think tat u hv nothing more than fren for me
everything v did tgt, r just base on the fundamentals of "friends"

An empty street, felt lk finding sum1 to talk to
having to make this decision, it's bcos i want to runaway fr loneliness
ur good towards me are lk the beautiful scenery fr the sideway window of a speeding car
it keeps goin on
but ur footsteps has never waited for me
silently i contributed my part in liking sum1
in exchange to get ur attention
i finally believe that everything u hv done for me is alr my source for happiness
thought that all i want is u companying me
Just to realise tat a crush also need two hands to clap

at this point of time, i stil quite like u
misses u, n always think wat r u doin at the moment
Good night to u..

dancing, my passion, my life

aft so many years, today was the 1st time i really danced again
i realised my happiness lies in music n dancing
tat is my passion, tat is wat tat keeps me goin on
whn i was dancing, i felt relaxed though i never reli danced ballroom b4
i felt no pressure, i dance n dance
hope in 2 yrs time, i can b a professional ballroom dancer
wish me luck, ok...

dancing has been so fun
regretted giving up ballet 7 years ago
i would hv ended up teaching n dancing ballet now
it was just tat 1 more cert i nid, n i could bcum a teacher alr
but, in another hand, if i nvr give up my ballet
my academic wouldnt b tat good (i guess)
i wouldnt hv ended up in in NTU
i wouldnt b a good student in skul
life is just lk tat, u just hv to give up things to accomodate another
it's the choice u make tat pave ur life