最近，也没有什么啦
习惯了很多东西，很多事物也开始看开了
不想再这么执着。不要让自己太痛苦
自己尽力就好
跟别人比得太辛苦，上海自己的精神和健康
毕竟，有些东西是我有的，可是他人是没有的
人有时会很辛苦，因为他只看见别人有的，而自己没有的
他忘了看看镜子，试问自己它拥有什么，是别人没有的
也因为这样，他变得很自卑
何必呢？
每个人都有他自己的长处，问题是他有没有去啄木，培养
玉不琢，不成器。。
所以，最要不得的行为是懒惰
没有去发现自己，培养天分，不要责怪上天没有给你天分
是自己放弃了自己，没有把自己的最好表现出去
所以，你们，会看我的部落格的人，
不要放弃自己的梦想
无论，情况多么糟糕，只要自己有放心机，心思
情况必定有回转的机会
人生有期待，等待，希望，才会画出美丽的彩虹
PS：其实，我也不知道为什么我会突然写这种东西，
i just write what has came into my mind...
大家，加油！！我们都好像快要考试了。。
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Saturday, March 14, 2009
tagged fr miin
1. Name → Gloria Goh Karlyen
2. Nickname(s)→ hippo, gorilla, 无加薪
4. Zodiac sign → Scorpio
5. Male or female → Female
6. Elementary → SRJK(C) Yoke Nam
7. Middle School → Chong Hwa Independent High School, KL
8. High School → Chong Hwa Independent High School + Tunku Abdul Rahman College
9. College School → Nanyang Technological University, Singapore
10. Hair color → Black
11. Long or short → Medium long
12. Loud or Quiet → when emo, quiet; but usually, loud
13. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans, malaysia is too hot for sweats
14. Phone or Camera → both?
15. Health freak → have to, no choice
16. Drink or Smoke? → definitely drink... i wan non-alcohol alcoholic drink... thx
17. Do you have a crush on someone? → decline to answer
18. Eat or Drink → Drink
19. Piercings → 2, hope to have another pair~
20. Tattoos → would like to hv 1 temporary 1
FIRSTS:
23. First piercing → primary 2
24. First best friend → Jessie (but i dun even noe where is she now)
25. First award → IQ Test in kindergarten--silver medal
26. First crush → std 6
27. First pet → Ruby, my female doggie
28. First big vacation → New Zealand, primary 2
30. First big birthday → 10 yrs old
CURRENTLY:
49. Eating → no
50. Drinking → no
52. I'm about to → sleep.. oi oi
53. Listening to → sleepness nights, Faber Drive (nice, highly recommended)
54. Plans for today → study organic chem, do maths and study programming
55. Waiting for → free time
'
YOUR FUTURE:
58. Want kids? → yeah.. but if sum1 wants me 1st
59. Want to get married? → if i am in demand, then of cos
60. Careers in mind → Consultant engineer, pharmaceutical engineer
WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
68. Lips or eyes → eyes (the eye that always mesmerizes me)
70. Shorter or taller? → tall.. hopefully 180cm, pls
72. Romantic or spontaneous → can't live with neither 1
73. Nice stomach or nice arms → stomach~ i dun lk ppl with belly.. hahha
74. Sensitive or loud→ sensitive.
75. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
76. Trouble maker or hesitant → u hv any of the criteria, u r disqualified : (
HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → yes
81. Ran away from home → thought of, but never
82. Held a gun/knife for self defense → nope
83. Killed somebody → never
84. Broken someone's heart → yes
85. Been arrested → when i was playing "hide n seek"
87. Cried when someone died → yes, badly, when my mama n kong kong passed away
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → erm... i lack of confidence.. sumtims
90. Miracles → yes, "there can be miracles, when u believe...(mariah carey)"
91. Love at first sight → no, love is developed.. i guess
92. Heaven → definitely...
93. Santa Claus → yes, my daddy n mummy
94. Tooth Fairy→ no
95. Kiss on the first date→ never
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now → means relationship? no... not yet...
98. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → sometimes yes, sometimes no
99. Do you believe in God → Yes, He is always beside me, i can feel His presence
1. Where is your cell phone? right beside my left hand
2. Your significant other? -- friends n family
3. Your hair? -- long
4. Your favourite thing? -- object? my bed
5. Your dream last night? -- forgotten
6. Your favourite drink? -- fruit juice, milk
7. Your dream/goal? -- 1st class honours (but, seems lk unachievable)
8. What room you are in? -- NTU, hall 1, blk 13, 02-201
9. Your hobby? interacting with frens
10. Your fear? darkness, stress, pressure
11. Where do you want to be in 6 years? full-fledge engineer
12. Where were you last night? -- hostel
13. Muffins? --
14. Wish list item? -- happy and contented with life
15. Where you grew up? -- KL.. Love KL... I wan go back
16. Last thing you did? -- rush lab formal report
17. What are you wearing? -- singlet n pants
18. Your TV? -- in TV Lounge
19. Your pets? -- hv none
20. Friends? -- missing them
21. Your life? -- neither here nor there
22. Your mood? -- normalself
23. Missing someone? -- guess so
24. Car? -- BMW/ Audi? when i hv the money, i will give tis q a think.. now is not the time yet
25.Something you're not wearing? -- guys' underwear
26. Your favourite store? -- magazine store
27. Your favourite color? -- green
28. When is the last time you laughed? -- laugh loudly? 3 hours ago
29. Last time you cried? -- few days ago
30. Who will resend this? -- i cannot predict the future
31. One place that I go to over and over? Singapore... not by choice but by fate
2. Nickname(s)→ hippo, gorilla, 无加薪
4. Zodiac sign → Scorpio
5. Male or female → Female
6. Elementary → SRJK(C) Yoke Nam
7. Middle School → Chong Hwa Independent High School, KL
8. High School → Chong Hwa Independent High School + Tunku Abdul Rahman College
9. College School → Nanyang Technological University, Singapore
10. Hair color → Black
11. Long or short → Medium long
12. Loud or Quiet → when emo, quiet; but usually, loud
13. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans, malaysia is too hot for sweats
14. Phone or Camera → both?
15. Health freak → have to, no choice
16. Drink or Smoke? → definitely drink... i wan non-alcohol alcoholic drink... thx
17. Do you have a crush on someone? → decline to answer
18. Eat or Drink → Drink
19. Piercings → 2, hope to have another pair~
20. Tattoos → would like to hv 1 temporary 1
FIRSTS:
23. First piercing → primary 2
24. First best friend → Jessie (but i dun even noe where is she now)
25. First award → IQ Test in kindergarten--silver medal
26. First crush → std 6
27. First pet → Ruby, my female doggie
28. First big vacation → New Zealand, primary 2
30. First big birthday → 10 yrs old
CURRENTLY:
49. Eating → no
50. Drinking → no
52. I'm about to → sleep.. oi oi
53. Listening to → sleepness nights, Faber Drive (nice, highly recommended)
54. Plans for today → study organic chem, do maths and study programming
55. Waiting for → free time
'
YOUR FUTURE:
58. Want kids? → yeah.. but if sum1 wants me 1st
59. Want to get married? → if i am in demand, then of cos
60. Careers in mind → Consultant engineer, pharmaceutical engineer
WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
68. Lips or eyes → eyes (the eye that always mesmerizes me)
70. Shorter or taller? → tall.. hopefully 180cm, pls
72. Romantic or spontaneous → can't live with neither 1
73. Nice stomach or nice arms → stomach~ i dun lk ppl with belly.. hahha
74. Sensitive or loud→ sensitive.
75. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
76. Trouble maker or hesitant → u hv any of the criteria, u r disqualified : (
HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → yes
81. Ran away from home → thought of, but never
82. Held a gun/knife for self defense → nope
83. Killed somebody → never
84. Broken someone's heart → yes
85. Been arrested → when i was playing "hide n seek"
87. Cried when someone died → yes, badly, when my mama n kong kong passed away
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → erm... i lack of confidence.. sumtims
90. Miracles → yes, "there can be miracles, when u believe...(mariah carey)"
91. Love at first sight → no, love is developed.. i guess
92. Heaven → definitely...
93. Santa Claus → yes, my daddy n mummy
94. Tooth Fairy→ no
95. Kiss on the first date→ never
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now → means relationship? no... not yet...
98. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → sometimes yes, sometimes no
99. Do you believe in God → Yes, He is always beside me, i can feel His presence
1. Where is your cell phone? right beside my left hand
2. Your significant other? -- friends n family
3. Your hair? -- long
4. Your favourite thing? -- object? my bed
5. Your dream last night? -- forgotten
6. Your favourite drink? -- fruit juice, milk
7. Your dream/goal? -- 1st class honours (but, seems lk unachievable)
8. What room you are in? -- NTU, hall 1, blk 13, 02-201
9. Your hobby? interacting with frens
10. Your fear? darkness, stress, pressure
11. Where do you want to be in 6 years? full-fledge engineer
12. Where were you last night? -- hostel
13. Muffins? --
14. Wish list item? -- happy and contented with life
15. Where you grew up? -- KL.. Love KL... I wan go back
16. Last thing you did? -- rush lab formal report
17. What are you wearing? -- singlet n pants
18. Your TV? -- in TV Lounge
19. Your pets? -- hv none
20. Friends? -- missing them
21. Your life? -- neither here nor there
22. Your mood? -- normalself
23. Missing someone? -- guess so
24. Car? -- BMW/ Audi? when i hv the money, i will give tis q a think.. now is not the time yet
25.Something you're not wearing? -- guys' underwear
26. Your favourite store? -- magazine store
27. Your favourite color? -- green
28. When is the last time you laughed? -- laugh loudly? 3 hours ago
29. Last time you cried? -- few days ago
30. Who will resend this? -- i cannot predict the future
31. One place that I go to over and over? Singapore... not by choice but by fate
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Agitated and grave
got back my effective communication paper today
n i only got a B for my written passage
i felt quite bad, cos i hv never gotten such low marks for english before
evethough it is not much of ur written language but the way u organise n express the passage
but i still felt very very bad
aft tat, v frens had lunch tgt,
i was the only girl among them
upon leaving the canteen, my hand was filled, as i packed food for my other friends
he happened to be walking in front of me
i was actually hoping, in the meantime, testing him, whether will he open the door for me
to my disappointment, the ans was "he did not"
so, i used my body to push the door open
this is a very clear indication that i shouldnt put on hope in him
n uproot all my feelings
eventhough aft tat, i went n print stuff,
he offered to help me get my things..
but, overall, i still think, giving up is a better choice
making this decision (dunno whether i can do it), i felt worse
i think it was quite obvious i was in a solemn mood
v both walked tgt to the benches outsede the lecture halls,
he didnt realise anything.. clearly states that he doesnt even bother
nvm... maybe he is just not meant for me
during lecture, i cant concentrate
i tried very hard to, but i guess it is bcos of lack of sleep
i lost focus
by this time, i felt like i want to break down
but i held myself
there r just far too much pressure i can hold
i want to surrender all
i want sum1 to hear me cry, hear my voice, my inner self
but who can? i dun want to reveal my true colours to my frens
i think they will be shocked that the usually cheerful girl, suddenly turned grave
i was also actually hoping that he comes n ask me wat was goin on
but, that was a dream, a dream too far to fetch
i really want to cry...
can sum1 hear my voice?
i am really pressured, i noe every1 does hv pressure
but for 2day, i am overloaded
who can wipe my tears?
who can lend me a shoulder?
is there sum1 outside willing to come forth and understand me?
n i only got a B for my written passage
i felt quite bad, cos i hv never gotten such low marks for english before
evethough it is not much of ur written language but the way u organise n express the passage
but i still felt very very bad
aft tat, v frens had lunch tgt,
i was the only girl among them
upon leaving the canteen, my hand was filled, as i packed food for my other friends
he happened to be walking in front of me
i was actually hoping, in the meantime, testing him, whether will he open the door for me
to my disappointment, the ans was "he did not"
so, i used my body to push the door open
this is a very clear indication that i shouldnt put on hope in him
n uproot all my feelings
eventhough aft tat, i went n print stuff,
he offered to help me get my things..
but, overall, i still think, giving up is a better choice
making this decision (dunno whether i can do it), i felt worse
i think it was quite obvious i was in a solemn mood
v both walked tgt to the benches outsede the lecture halls,
he didnt realise anything.. clearly states that he doesnt even bother
nvm... maybe he is just not meant for me
during lecture, i cant concentrate
i tried very hard to, but i guess it is bcos of lack of sleep
i lost focus
by this time, i felt like i want to break down
but i held myself
there r just far too much pressure i can hold
i want to surrender all
i want sum1 to hear me cry, hear my voice, my inner self
but who can? i dun want to reveal my true colours to my frens
i think they will be shocked that the usually cheerful girl, suddenly turned grave
i was also actually hoping that he comes n ask me wat was goin on
but, that was a dream, a dream too far to fetch
i really want to cry...
can sum1 hear my voice?
i am really pressured, i noe every1 does hv pressure
but for 2day, i am overloaded
who can wipe my tears?
who can lend me a shoulder?
is there sum1 outside willing to come forth and understand me?
思念，挂念，想念
此时此刻，很想打通电话给我一个在金宝的朋友
老实说，我没有真正关心她，不知，他最近如何了
突然，就诊的很想念她
她现在在做什么呢？是否跟我一样，为了一堆似乎永远都做不完的课业和作业
很累。。自从开学，每天都很累，平均一天睡五个小时
这种生活已经变成了习惯
知道这样子会伤害身子与健康，但是，为了课业，就真的必须这么做
毕竟，本人没有像我的大学朋友们那么聪明
晓敏，记得我们承诺过要一起考获第一学位吗？
承诺，其实 ，未必一定要办到，只要尽力完成承诺就好。
因为聆听你承诺的人，会知道你又用心的。
这个道理，在感情上也一样。
不再 相信天长地久，只要你用心爱过我，真心对待我， 那么就好了
因为，若你两者都做到，离开我的机率大概等于零。
挂念我爷爷。
今天是他的第一百天，全家人都到孝恩园去孝敬他
多希望我也可以在场
说道这边，真的有一丝伤感。
想起他对我的好，真的很想念。
终记得小时候，我的调皮，他终会一一地完成我刁蛮的要求
跟他接触最多的孙子，就是我吧。。
他载我去上课，有一年半的时间
如果，有逆光机的话，我真的会好好跟他相处，好好跟他聊天，好好学插花的技术
认真学打麻将
小时候，他还陪我玩羽毛球。。哈哈，想回去，回忆真的很美好
还记得，我经常学他拿香拜拜，有一次还不小心给他拿香擦伤我的脸
到现在，还有个疤痕
幸好，还有留下疤痕给我纪念他
思念谁呢？想他，却害怕跟他讲话
今天，他生病了，应该是感冒。。
其实，很想问他怎样，相关心他，但绝对没有这么大的胆量
一直在想他现在还好吗？会辛苦吗？
但，认识我的人，会知道我会把一切感觉，心情，关心收在心里，永远不给他知道
我今晚会为他祷告，希望他早日康复
也会祷告，他永远不知道，也不会怀疑我喜欢他。。
阿门。
老实说，我没有真正关心她，不知，他最近如何了
突然，就诊的很想念她
她现在在做什么呢？是否跟我一样，为了一堆似乎永远都做不完的课业和作业
很累。。自从开学，每天都很累，平均一天睡五个小时
这种生活已经变成了习惯
知道这样子会伤害身子与健康，但是，为了课业，就真的必须这么做
毕竟，本人没有像我的大学朋友们那么聪明
晓敏，记得我们承诺过要一起考获第一学位吗？
承诺，其实 ，未必一定要办到，只要尽力完成承诺就好。
因为聆听你承诺的人，会知道你又用心的。
这个道理，在感情上也一样。
不再 相信天长地久，只要你用心爱过我，真心对待我， 那么就好了
因为，若你两者都做到，离开我的机率大概等于零。
挂念我爷爷。
今天是他的第一百天，全家人都到孝恩园去孝敬他
多希望我也可以在场
说道这边，真的有一丝伤感。
想起他对我的好，真的很想念。
终记得小时候，我的调皮，他终会一一地完成我刁蛮的要求
跟他接触最多的孙子，就是我吧。。
他载我去上课，有一年半的时间
如果，有逆光机的话，我真的会好好跟他相处，好好跟他聊天，好好学插花的技术
认真学打麻将
小时候，他还陪我玩羽毛球。。哈哈，想回去，回忆真的很美好
还记得，我经常学他拿香拜拜，有一次还不小心给他拿香擦伤我的脸
到现在，还有个疤痕
幸好，还有留下疤痕给我纪念他
思念谁呢？想他，却害怕跟他讲话
今天，他生病了，应该是感冒。。
其实，很想问他怎样，相关心他，但绝对没有这么大的胆量
一直在想他现在还好吗？会辛苦吗？
但，认识我的人，会知道我会把一切感觉，心情，关心收在心里，永远不给他知道
我今晚会为他祷告，希望他早日康复
也会祷告，他永远不知道，也不会怀疑我喜欢他。。
阿门。
Thursday, March 5, 2009
mood
It’s no later than 1:15am of 5th of march
Haven’t really done anything much today
My computer is down, internet is not working, that’s the reason you guys have not been seeing me on msn for quite some time
Anyway, just wan to tell you people that one Indonesian Chinese of EEE in my school committed suicide on Monday, 10:15am he jumped down from our building, and ended his life on the spot. Before he grabbed his own life away, he ramp into a professor’s room and gave him a few stabs. The professor was discharged from the hospital today. Unfortunately, the Indonesian remains was cremated into ashes today. Even though he has nothing related to me, I felt deeply saddened and don’t understand what was so tough for him… he is alr a final year student, only 2 more months to go, and he is out from this dungeon. What a waste of effort aft 4 years of stint study and ends up with an entangled mind that has lead him to the roof top and gave him the huge courage to jump down. Anyway, I just want to tell u all that I actually felt sad for him and his family.
This is a hectic week for me and my course mates, having 2 major exams, 1 assignment to pass up, programming to hand in… phew.. it is Thursday twilight already, very swiftly, we would have arrived on this week’s weekend.. time just waits for no man.. how I wish I can have 72 hours a day… 48 hours, I dun think it is enough too. Yeah yeah yeah, I noe I am a greedy.
Hmm… another thing is, I found out that he is treating me quite well, and we did things within only 2 of us, eg studied together. I try not to be skeptical and doubt his feelings for me, because if I do, I am putting a trap for myself to fall for him. i want myself to stay out before I get myself badly hurt again. I will never believe what other people say until he himself confesses to me, and I wouldn’t believe my instinct and intuition.
Last week when I just reached my room aft a long journey from Malaysia, guess what!? I lost my intimate garments, my bras… arghh.. I lost two or three of them. And they are brand new, just bought during Chinese new year. They also one of the very very few good bras I have. Now, they are gone…. If I know who the culprit is, he or she will be in hot soup… I haven’t think of a way to punish them… haha… my roommate, toilet mates’ bra were all stolen b4. I strongly believe that the culprit is a guy who has psychological problem, because we girls come from different bra size and cup size, y all of our bra is stolen, if the culprit is a girl, she would nid a bra that fits her own boobs, right?
Oh.. I am freaking tired..
Just want to tell u all that I miss every1 in KL, and sumtims the one in India too… but, dun worry, I have many good frens here too.
I learnt a lesson recently. A week b4 my recess week, I took my maths exam, and I was absolutely depressed because I thought I did very badly. This affects my mood to study for the next day’s exam—physics, which I am suppose to do very well in it. That day, I came back to hostel, called my mum and cried like that’s the end of the world. Just two days ago, I got my results, it was 80/100. Oh my gosh, what a waste of tears. I could hv done very much better for physics if I knew I could get this mark. So, from now onwards, I am not goin to let any exam affect my mood to study for the exam. Besides, I am tired of comparing. I got very happy when I knew I scored 80 marks, so I want to remain happy. I know very well that if I were to ask other Malaysian frens how they scored, many of them will be very much better than me, but I am truly satisfied with my results. I dun wan other external factors to affect my happiness and simplicity of my mind.
Oh ya, yao yao, wan to tell you that Faber Drive song is very nice, eg second chance, sleepless nights, I’m with you etc.
Life is beautiful.. good night.
Haven’t really done anything much today
My computer is down, internet is not working, that’s the reason you guys have not been seeing me on msn for quite some time
Anyway, just wan to tell you people that one Indonesian Chinese of EEE in my school committed suicide on Monday, 10:15am he jumped down from our building, and ended his life on the spot. Before he grabbed his own life away, he ramp into a professor’s room and gave him a few stabs. The professor was discharged from the hospital today. Unfortunately, the Indonesian remains was cremated into ashes today. Even though he has nothing related to me, I felt deeply saddened and don’t understand what was so tough for him… he is alr a final year student, only 2 more months to go, and he is out from this dungeon. What a waste of effort aft 4 years of stint study and ends up with an entangled mind that has lead him to the roof top and gave him the huge courage to jump down. Anyway, I just want to tell u all that I actually felt sad for him and his family.
This is a hectic week for me and my course mates, having 2 major exams, 1 assignment to pass up, programming to hand in… phew.. it is Thursday twilight already, very swiftly, we would have arrived on this week’s weekend.. time just waits for no man.. how I wish I can have 72 hours a day… 48 hours, I dun think it is enough too. Yeah yeah yeah, I noe I am a greedy.
Hmm… another thing is, I found out that he is treating me quite well, and we did things within only 2 of us, eg studied together. I try not to be skeptical and doubt his feelings for me, because if I do, I am putting a trap for myself to fall for him. i want myself to stay out before I get myself badly hurt again. I will never believe what other people say until he himself confesses to me, and I wouldn’t believe my instinct and intuition.
Last week when I just reached my room aft a long journey from Malaysia, guess what!? I lost my intimate garments, my bras… arghh.. I lost two or three of them. And they are brand new, just bought during Chinese new year. They also one of the very very few good bras I have. Now, they are gone…. If I know who the culprit is, he or she will be in hot soup… I haven’t think of a way to punish them… haha… my roommate, toilet mates’ bra were all stolen b4. I strongly believe that the culprit is a guy who has psychological problem, because we girls come from different bra size and cup size, y all of our bra is stolen, if the culprit is a girl, she would nid a bra that fits her own boobs, right?
Oh.. I am freaking tired..
Just want to tell u all that I miss every1 in KL, and sumtims the one in India too… but, dun worry, I have many good frens here too.
I learnt a lesson recently. A week b4 my recess week, I took my maths exam, and I was absolutely depressed because I thought I did very badly. This affects my mood to study for the next day’s exam—physics, which I am suppose to do very well in it. That day, I came back to hostel, called my mum and cried like that’s the end of the world. Just two days ago, I got my results, it was 80/100. Oh my gosh, what a waste of tears. I could hv done very much better for physics if I knew I could get this mark. So, from now onwards, I am not goin to let any exam affect my mood to study for the exam. Besides, I am tired of comparing. I got very happy when I knew I scored 80 marks, so I want to remain happy. I know very well that if I were to ask other Malaysian frens how they scored, many of them will be very much better than me, but I am truly satisfied with my results. I dun wan other external factors to affect my happiness and simplicity of my mind.
Oh ya, yao yao, wan to tell you that Faber Drive song is very nice, eg second chance, sleepless nights, I’m with you etc.
Life is beautiful.. good night.
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